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Isn't that so freaking cute? It's a character from Wonderpets, a show my lil diva watches.

It's also fitting because I'm about to get a little serious on ya. Which if you've known me for a long time, you know even in the depths of despair I can't stay serious, I'm certifiably silly from head to toe.  But I am going to do a serious what is on my mind post...because when it comes to my daughter I am 100% serious. She's my life, my heart and my reason for everything I do. So is it so wrong that I want her father to feel the same... but it just isn't there. I am particularly bothered by this the past few days. Not to put Mimi's business out there but she had a UTI a couple weeks ago, and I anguished over it because my baby was sick. But the ex...nothing phases him about it. She got sick again 2 days ago, I naturally call because of it to tell him...No answer, no return calls. When I do text the next day and tell him... I expected calls to check up on her..something anything. Nada. It just disappoints me. And it makes me so mad! So mad sometimes I just want to punch him where the sun doesn't shine! Anyone willing to offer to do that? Besides M's godmother (you need to keep your job missy, no!)? Sigh, honestly I just feel like I make such an effort and I don't know what else to do... Anyway to be "fair" I'll give his side:  he blames the long distance. Ok.

And I considered the residency options that would put us in proximity so she could have a dad. That's why I went to AL and considered it highly until he decide to move...and I options both in his new location and the choice that makes me most happy would be a 3 hour drive! And then maybe I could have more help than my mom! But the more I think about it, I wonder if it is going to make a difference. I don't think it will. And why am I the one doing everything, making all the effort?! As much as he thinks he wants to be a dad, he doesn't have it in him. Or maybe not with us. Probably just not with us. And that's uber sad...and so not sexy. No really, not sexy at all.  (Yeah I kind of lost my serious vibe...but it lasted a good moment there huh?) I think sexiest thing is a guy who is a dad (closely followed by a guy in uniform...army, marines even navy...yum). Really nothing is sexier than a guy who really takes care of his kids. The last guy I just dated had dependability issues and I was like "Eh that means you probably can't be a good dad" and in one instant he lost all attractiveness to me. One of Mimi's playmates dad is a single dad and even though he is twice my age, there are times when I totally think inappropriate thoughts as we watch the kids play and talk about life. In fact I am pretty obvious about this fact to the point that one guy MADE UP a FAKE kid in an attempt to get me interested. Not. Kidding. He went shopping for the"kid" at toys r us with me, would send me pictures of this "kid" (later found out it's his friends kid...), created sob "baby mama" stories (I hate baby mama stories...why can't exes be friends...so that really didn't help him), created a fake life but in the end the scary mentally unstable truth came out...

Whoever made this Ecard...probably knows me :)

And fyi just because a guy is dad, he has to be a good dad to be a) sexy and b) nope doesn't mean I'll date him. Sigh, I am picky. Which is fine because the only thing I want in the whole wide world is my
Mimi.

Being a parent, now that is what makes life worth living.