Yesterday I did something that I thought I would be too shy and private to do...I unveiled this blog to people who know me!It was nice to see I was getting some views but part of me had this nagging feeling I should share these thoughts with some people who actually know me as well. Not that I don't appreciate you awesome strangers who started reading my blog! Thank you as well! But then the nagging feeling led to a lightbulb moment. AHA! VIP! I have a "VIP list" on facebook that is a handful of close friends & family. So I shared it with them. Hi VIP! And some fellow mommies in medical school, Hi Mommies in medical school! In fact it is all the love from my unveiling that prompted me to write another post today. And it is a long one!
What has been on my mind
constantly lately is what to specialize in?! I was literally taking an end of clerkship shelf exam today when I found myself thinking of this very topic...in the middle of the exam. I'm hoping I bubbled in the answers right. I can see myself accidentally bubbling in and having it look like the word CHOOSE when you flip it to the side.
But it is only technically the rest of my life... kind of. Actually people switch IN residency a lot and a handful do a second residency after the first but I'm finding more gray hairs by the day, my eggs are dying, I want to stop being a wandering gypsy and I really just don't feel like being someone who is starting OVER in a residency (and with that sentence, I just jinxed myself I bet.)
Thing is I know what I
love, but it conflicts with my
other love. No, not fashion (but it kinda conflicts with that too). I'm talking about my family. I kind of want to be there to see all of Ms major life events...her first solo in ballet, her first day at high school, her first world tour. No really, world tour. Because at four years old she has decided to become a "rock star". And while most people would be like "aw how cute? It is just a phase". M is
diva enough to make it happen (she begs me for dance classes, piano, singing lessons, agents...yes you read right: AGENTS). She set her mind at 3 years old and has been actively working towards it while I resisted, but after she introduced herself in Panera bread to a modeling agent I gave up. True story. Which just goes to show you that she's going to be a
rock star.
And there I go falling in love with a time intensive specialty because I
just couldn't make it easy on myself. I'll be honest I came into medical school with two options in mind...and darn it I love one of them! Like seriously, I love it and I feel I could be great at it...and not sure I am good at anything else. Now I have this nagging feeling that I could end up missing her opening night of her first world tour. And that's just the start of the cons for choosing that specialty. *whining teenage voice* But I looooove it.
However, I'm trying to rack my mind with what else?! What else will I like just as much, or where else will I find my people?! (There's this thing in medical school, the different specialties have different personality types and you should find "your people")
A year ago I found this cartoon from an awesome blog (The Underwear Drawer blogspot. <http://theunderweardrawer.blogspot.com/2011/03/12-medical-specialty-stereotypes-2011.html>) that sums the personality types up nicely
Seriously, I'm starting my last rotation of 3rd year on Monday and I can tell you THIS ^ is 100% accurate.
Here's a lovely flowchart by another type A medical student made to help me choose:
But in actuality THIS is how I've seen upperclassman choose:
Either way Monday is the start of the lotteries and applications for my fourth year adventures that are supposed to help me get ready to apply for residency. And here I am scouring the internet for flowcharts to help me choose. Yeah... exactly. No worries though, I just bought a Chateau Cantemerle Bordeaux 2009 vintage. I'm going to relax with a glass or three. Then maybe create a twister floor poster with all the specialties I'm thinking about and spin the bottle after I'm done savoring it. Voila! Decision will be made. Now that's how you choose the rest of your life!